Accepting reality

when I first began this "venture", I had my doubt. Somewhere in my mind, I knew that it wouldn't work.

Eventually, those doubts were confirmed and I started to uncover more about the cold hard truth.

Being someone who's stubborn, I marched on despite the red flags, having hope that I can prove the world wrong.

Years passed, something major happened. Confrontation. It wasn't even a fair battle as it felt like a two on one. I was forced to accept that I'm wrong instead.

Once that happened, I went back to being how I was years ago. Do what I do and keep myself busy and distracted all the time. From time to time, those distractions had gaps and I became self-aware...

Now is the time that the time gap is widening. Thinking about my entire life, I'm rather lonely. No one true close friend that I can talk about everything with, or just something serious for that matter.

It's always either work, someone needing help, or just talking about mindless stuff.

I hate this feeling. Now, I gotta let that loneliness sink in.

I really need a companion in life.
And I need some emotional support for sure.