feeling like I'm about to implode

Let's put everything out there first.

I'm fairly antisocial who just doesn't want to get out, but will still sometimes want to go out because I'm bored and want to see stuff.

I like being quiet and be alone but sometimes will be great if there's someone else.

This pandemic really puts things in perspective, though. And I'm starting to feel stuck.

I also enjoy working but as far as work goes, I sometimes feel like it's stalled out uninteresting or lost the motivation to work.

Since work is like the biggest part of my life, finding companionship is something that I do if I don't want to work.

And this feedback loop goes round again - I'm antisocial and don't want to go out to meet new people.

I've also never dated anyone before due to this. Guys or girls.

You see where I'm getting?

And now I'm trying to reach out to people but I'm getting rejected. Yeah. I'm pretty sad.

Seasonal depression maybe?