Deadliest combination

So I am an introvert that has a brain that somehow is cross-dominant.
It just means that two hemispheres are equally dominant, nothing much.
How did I come to that conclusion? Well, I can use chopsticks with both my hands equally well, I pour drinks using my left hand (preferably) and write with my right.
A good division of labor, though I mostly favour one side in particular depending on the task. This is called mixed handedness. Ambidextrous is where you can do EVERYTHING with both your hands equally well. That's exceptionally rare of course.

Ambidextrous people aren't much different from mixed handedness in terms of how the brain works. They're both equally well and both hemispheres are just as active. The problems with ambidextrous and mixed handed freaks are the inconceivable truce between the two hemispheres and the *hand confusion*. Let me tell you one by one.

The two hemispheres are like Apple and Google for ambidextrous and mixed handed freaks. They both nearly never reach a truce. Learning is a problem. Both hemispheres contradict each other in almost every single way at every single thing you do.

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I for one can't make up my mind which hand to use while playing badminton. I don't know which hand to use while throwing things. I can't balance myself nicely.
I have poor handwriting. Learning is a hassle for me, I wonder how I ever got this far.

Introvert is someone who prefer to live within their own minds rather than going out and socialize. The funniest thing though is how much they think within their own brain.
For me, I think of mostly pessimistic things and spew it out to my blog - this one you're reading.

Why is this a deadly composition you ask?

Given mixed handedness, I have the greatest contradiction within my own skull - between the left hemisphere and the right hemisphere of my brain.
Given introversion, I tend to live within my own mind.

You can already see what's the effect. Both combined, I'm not sure how long I am going to last. I'm afraid I'm on the verge to kill myself.

Each time during the holidays, people only approach me for favours. Sean, I'm looking at you. Twice you contacted me is about iPads and Nexuses. The people I approach ignored me.

That's why I buy/plan things to occupy and waste all my time on during the holidays. Just to keep my mind off everything.
I can't find anyone to clear my mind off anything, that's why.

The more time I have alone with my mind, the close I'll get to going insane.

The best time I ever had while killing my time is playing Borderlands 2 online.

So, who wants to commit suicide with me?