Maturity

It's quite weird to say this but here's something I just want to let it out. Since my melancholy season is inactive now, it's a holy season is inactive now, it's a good time to say these things out.

When I was told things didn't change, well - in some aspect, that's true. In fact, it got even better. The bond matured. Became stronger like 2-part epoxy just got cured. That only happened only after some struggle, which is also like wrestling the parts and holding it in place to let the epoxy dry.

Things did change - but just that it's somewhat considered minor, I'd guess. Hugs are gone though I honestly miss that a lot since I do like hugs. Talks about family stuff is mostly nonexistent now since I can see things for myself and there are no happening these days - which is good.

Then as for interaction... well... it does seem to have gotten better but that needs constant monitoring and checking as well. That in itself filled me with joy.

And I just want to take this opportunity to say this.

Hi, if you're reading this - probably you aren't because who comes here anyway - then yeah, hi. I actually only know one person who comes here and read this.

Hey yo, Dugi. My brother from another mother.

I'm not trying to creep you out but just hear me out here. I kinda feel that we're both along the lines of "I don't deserve goodness" type of mentality, but I am obviously more expressive than you. Also sorry if I'm harsh to you. I want us to get better. And that's just the way I am.

Drop me a PM after you read this perhaps? I don't know, lol.

I appreciate you in my life. A lot. We have our own squabbles but honestly, that's how bonds get stronger as we can understand and look past our differences after the squabble. That's maturity.

Also, yeah. I take my time to actually show you that I am grateful to have you - even though we have our own different ways of showing it. This is my way. No matter how small, I still get some token of appreciation with the best of my ability.

Honestly, who doesn't wish for something in return, right? Even when someone said "I don't wish for anything in return when I do good", most of the time it's a lie. I'm really just hoping for a strong personal relationship from the people that I care. That's all.

And for me, I'm an emotional guy and gets touched easily. Personal attachment and relationship is important to me. Yet for me, some simple birthday celebration from those I care is already a great present for me. Have a chat, eat together, take some pictures together.

While some people think it's always the grandeur celebration is what people wants, that's wrong. I just like to spend time with those I care, and shown that I am cared by them too. Not just words, but actions. And it's always the thought that counts. Make it effective and efficient.